Since I have officially finished off my first trimester (I am 14 weeks today), I thought this would be a good time to look back on it. I have renamed trimester one to the trimester of secrets and for good reason. We kept our pregnancy a secret from everyone except for our parents and four best friends. The world was finally made aware around 11.5 weeks. Let me tell you, that is a VERY difficult secret to keep. For me it was the dreaded all day sickness that plagued me all of November. Try explaining to your coworkers again why you’re not feeling 100% (as far as they knew, Chris was sick all of November and I had what he had…. or so I said). Chris though… well let me explain. Chris blew it at a good bye party and then almost blew it in front of his brother, and then AGAIN in front of my sister and her friends.
But who can blame him? We’re stoked! Plus, baby is a normal topic of conversation between Chris and I. “What do you think about this for the baby’s room?” he’ll ask. Or “I love this onesie!” I’ll scream across Target. Baby conversation is our normal now. We talk about the what ifs, our fears, and how we’ll teach our children. It’s hard not to be excited.
This trimester has been memorable for me. There are so many moments I wish I could just have on recording to replay over and over. Hearing Chris’ “KAITLYN, WHAT ARE THESE?! WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?” reaction to seeing the positive tests on his night stand. Or the high pitched scream from my aunt on Christmas day followed up by “EVERYONE HURRY UP AND READ CHRIS’ SHIRT!!” Or my favorite of all, walking into the hospital in Alabama and giving Chris’ grandpa a hug, him grinning from ear to ear, and then, in front of the whole family says, “So I heard you were pregnant, is that true?” (Side note, we hadn’t told Chris’ family yet and were waiting until the next day. Chris’ mom told him last time she visited). And even Emma Cowart’s “Wait, so you’re pregnant right now?!” as she took our Christmas card & baby announcement photos, has a special little place in my mind.
I feel like the pregnancy is dragging on but now, sitting on the couch typing this up, I’ve realized it’s flown by. Was it really almost a month and a half ago that I saw my baby on the ultrasound and heard it’s heart beat for the first time? When was the last time I wore something other than pajama pants or workout legging out and about? The first trimester has come and gone.
Even though it’s gone, I’m definitely not upset. This coming trimester will be even more exciting. I’ve honestly never been so excited to go to the doctor. I could just stare at the ultrasounds for hours. I wish I had a recording of the baby’s heart beat just so I could know that all is ok in there. One of my fears, as depressing as it sounds, is that I will lose my baby. Maybe that’s everyone’s fear, I don’t know. Trimester one has been scary in some ways because, your body hasn’t really grown yet and you don’t feel any movement. It’s just quiet and everything is normal, like nothing is actually happening. But trimester two, I know it will be grand. We will find out if we’re having a boy or a girl (please be a boy, please be a boy, please be a boy!). We will get to start buying and looking for things specific to our baby. I’ll actually look pregnant instead of looking like I ate too much apple pie over the holidays.
I’m trying to soak up as much as possible. I don’t want to forget a thing. So here’s to trimester two and all it has to offer. I pray that it will be just as amazing as I hope it will be.
P.S. Here’s a picture of me 14 weeks along. Completely finished with the first trimester! I can’t believe how… um… round…. I’m getting. Still quite the shocker.